"When you have been tried by the fire..."
I never knew what those words meant really until years after I experienced a house fire. I am still learning lessons predicated upon that fire of so long ago. Here is the burning of my house in a poetic setting. Travel with me down the ladder of emotions and back up again as we meet laughter, pain, joy, sorrow, and hope while weaving our way through the verses of this poem.
Renewed Faith in My Fellowman
April 16, 1987, is not a date
That I’ll soon forget
For the happenings of this day
Left me quite upset
I was running late so I didn’t
Take time to put on my rings
I left them on my dresser with
My other jewelry things
Our house was about 7 miles from the
School where I taught Special Education
And as I drove, I enjoyed the breezy sun-filled day
With a sense of quiet elation
I enjoyed the new spring green of the grass
That would soon need mowing
I enjoyed the tenacious little daffodils
That had just started growing
I chatted with my Son about
What time I would pick him up
I reminded my daughter to finish her
Apple juice from her new sippy cup
After I dropped my kids off at
Their respective schools
I hastened to my job because being
Late was against the rules
I made it to school, went to the office,
Said, “Hello” and signed in
Didn’t have a clue that within two hours,
I’d be back in that office again
I spoke to my colleagues as I walked
Past each of their doors
Then I went out to the portable building
To begin my daily chores
Of teaching reading, math, spelling
Language, science and social studies
And was glad to see my two new teacher’s aides who
Had turned out to be my hard-working buddies
We had all settled in for the morning and had
Our children working as hard as could be
When the secretary interrupted our second class
By intercom and said that she needed to see me
I said I would come as soon as the next bell rang
And I had let my children go to P.E.
She told me to come right then and to let one of the aides
Keep my kids and to bring the other one with me
“Wonder what’s up?” I said aloud as my two aides
And I looked at each other with puzzled eyes
“It’s probably that shipment of workbooks I ordered and
She wants them out of the office as fast as instant pie.”
Well, we sped down to the office because interrupting
Class for a workbook shipment is simply not done
When we rounded the corner of the office door, the secretary said,
“Just got a call and your house is on fire hon.”
My aide started to have hysterics and
I began to try to calm her
When the secretary said, “Not your house, but (pointing at me)
Yours, while touching me on my shoulder
I stammered, “M-my house is burning down?
Nah, somebody has made a mistake”
My boss told me to go home and my aide
And another one, along with me to take
A leveled headed aide drove and when we were 5 miles from my house,
We could see a thick black column of billowing smoke
We all watched that column but I
Was the only one who spoke
“If that’s my house burning, there won’t be
Anything left when we get to it, you know.”
The level-headed aide said, “It’s not your house because that
Fire is too close, and we still have five miles to go
“Maybe you’re right; some farmer is probably burning
Off his field and it got out of control.”
Said the other aide, while I onto that
Slim hope tried to keep hold
You know, in the rural areas, you travel
Through so many twists and turns
But no matter how many twists and turns we made, we kept coming
Back toward that column of smoke where we could see stuff burn
Was it only my house that we
Found blazing that April day?
Nope! When we got there, my Mom’s had already burned
Completely and mine was well on its way
I stood there and watched my son’s room, my
Daughter’s room and our bedroom go up in flames
When I think about it, I still think
It was an awful shame
That there was no way to get a pumper there
Fast enough to pump water from the ditch
But you know how things work; they
Seldom go off without a hitch
By the time the pumper came, four
Miles from the nearest town
My little house with all of its contents
Had burned to the ground
I thought about my kids' pictures that
I had had taken through the years
I thought about my new teaching wardrobe and the new
Riding lawn mower and I couldn’t see for the tears
I remember wondering why the
Grass didn’t stop growing
I remember wondering why the wind
Just kept right on blowing
So much for my ideas about treating people right and
Doing the right thing, all of that had just come up empty
Then I thought about how though the fire had taken
Her house and ours, GOD left my Mom with me
Then I remembered that we had changed insurance companies and the old coverage
Ran out and the beginning new coverage on the following week would fall
What week did my house burn, the week when there
Was not a single smidgeon of coverage at all
That meant that everything that I had worked and scraped for for
Thirteen years was lost and no way to replace any of it
People kept saying, “These things can be replaced.” And I thought,
“The next person that says that to me is gonna see me have a fit
Sure enough, the level-headed aide said “it,” and I screamed
At her, “You just tell me how!”
“You’re going home to your house intact;
What cha’ got to say about that now?!”
She never said a word, but bowed her head and
Then asked me if I had called my spouse
I told her that somebody had gone home and
Phoned his job from their house
When my husband got there, he just sat on the side
Of the hill and just sobbed and sobbed
He said that he couldn’t feel any worse
If we had just been robbed
The only thing that I kept saying aloud was that
I didn’t even own a broom straw
And I kept wondering, in my mind, when that awful
Knot in my throat was going to start to thaw
And that level-headed aide to which
I threw a screaming fit
She only supplied my son with an entire wardrobe (shoes and all)
And even threw in a broom and dust pan kit
Furthermore, my kids’ respective schools replaced
Their new bikes that we had just bought
And we were supplied with housewares, small appliances, clothes
And money from the school where I taught
From the churches that we were affiliated with, we
Received furniture, linen, money and more
From the whole community to our family,
There was a tremendous outpour
So we made it through it all, as victims
Of catastrophes, with time and effort, do
But the fire that happened on April 16, 1987,
Did my faith in my fellowman renew
And regarding total replacement fire insurance,
Allow me to tell you one thing more
Learned a lesson? You betcha! Nowadays,
This family is fire insurance poor!
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Years have passed since that fateful day
That life tugged off my rose-tinted glasses
And the fray shook some of my faith away.
I remember that youthful anger came to my aid
About what had happened to me
Until I realized that my anger was directed to
A Being I could not even see.
And better yet, I realized that He had carried me
Such a ways from where I started that for a
Moment, I forgot that by His grace I was
Allowed to be the success that I had become
In fact, had been chosen for a particular duty
Way before I was gifted to my Mom.
Now, I travel this world and work at
Spreading hope and encouragement through
Whatever work I am given to do.
I have learned to cheer others on who are running their race well
And to pick still others up who by life have been felled
And yes, every now and then I am brandished back through
The finishing fire again to get more impurities out
But now, I stay prayerful and know that the God of Heaven
Has my life plan and is working all things out.
So, when you see me smiling through my pain
And you see me unfold my umbrella in the rain
Just know that I have full assurance that my Father
Is, but working on my impurities again.
...And I shall come through as pure gold!
Doing What I Can, While I Can Because I Care,
Alma L. Grateful Carr-Jones